Back to School

I have now been back at Ball State for a week and it definitely a change from being at home. I love being back don't get me wrong. However I do not like the start of classes. The first week was not that bad but I need to keep thinking that I can't stress myself out about the little things like I did last year. This year started out completely different as I had to say goodbye to a friend not forever but until I see her again someday in heaven. It was a very difficult week but it made me realize that we don't have forever to live. Some of us have longer than others but some of us could only have a few more days, weeks, or years left in us. My friend was always happy and always smiling I think that is what I learned from her that no matter what is going on to always be happy and have a smiling face. So as I packed up my things and headed off for school I thought about the coming year and what it held. At this point I don't know what it will hold I'm sure it will hold sadness, heartbreak, good and bad time, testing times, stressful times. I know that no matter what this year brings that I will take it on smiling and being happy because that is how we are suppose to live. So stop feeling down if you are and look at all the wonderful things that you get experience and all the things in your life that have yet to come.

Vacation

This past week I went to Myrtle Beach with my parents and one of my friends. It was such an amazing time. It was a great week where I just got to relax and spent some time with my parents before I go back to school. I also faced my fear and went pretty far into the ocean. I love the beach and everything that goes with it but when it comes to the ocean it scares me a little because well there are animals such as sharks in there and that just freaks me out, but I got over that fear and went out into the ocean. This vacation gave me some time to just think things over. It was great to just be able to lay there or to walk along the beach and just think things through. There has been a lot going on in my life lately but on vacation I realized that things will work out for the best and that people come into your life for a purpose. A lot of the time I just think that people are there because you have things in common or you just get along with them but on this vacation I realized that people are placed in your life for a purpose. Everyone you meet in some way changed your life whether it was in a small tiny way that you don't even notice or if it is in a big way. Some people come into your life and stay only for a short time and then leave and then there are those people who stay in your life for a very long time and never leave but the people who interest me the most are the ones who come and go in your life. I know that sounds weird because wouldn't you want the people who never leave. I have realized though that the people that come and go are the ones who have touched my life the most because they are the ones who really have taught me things in my life. They have taught me how to say goodbye but know that it is not goodbye forever. They have taught me how to trust myself and to not rely on others all the time. There is something unique about the people who come and go in my life and that is that they keep coming back. Something draws them back to you which is what I find most interesting. They keep coming back they just can't seem to forget you and that fact makes me feel very special like I am doing something right or in that instant is when I need them most and some how they are there for me that is what I find so interesting about people who come and go in my life. I have had to say goodbye to a lot of friends lately whether it be because they were going back to school or they were moving to a different state the thing that has kept me strong when saying goodbye is knowing that they will come back right when I need them they will still be there.