If Today Was Your Last Day..

If today was your last day how would you spend it? Would you spend it being mad at someone for something stupid that they did? Would you be selfish and just do the things that you wanted to do and not the things that you're friends wanted to do? Would you spend it laying in bed because some boy upset you? If today was you last day how would you spend it?

This has been the question that has been going through my mind this whole break. Yesterday was my friend's birthday that passed away in August it was a hard day to get through but at the same time it gave me some perspective on my life. If today was my last day I would not spend it mad at someone for some stupid reason because that would be a waste of my time because for all I know today could be their last day too. Some people don't think that a day an hour or even a few minutes can really change your life but I believe that even a few seconds can change your entire life. So why would you spend even a second being mad at someone for something stupid even if it is not something stupid why would you continue to be mad at them.

I also would not spend my last day all to my self, doing just the things that I want to do. I would want to spend my day with my friends and family doing what they wanted to do because that is what would make them happy which in the end should make me happy.I would not want to be selfish if today was my last day. I would want to be happy and be able to tell people how I really felt and not just put on a face for people because in the end where does that really get you.

I cannot even imagine spending the day just laying in bed because some boy had made me upset so I did not feel like doing anything that whole day. I would go and hang out with my friend and try and get over the fact that the boy had upset me. I would also want to hang out with my friends because it could be the last time that I would get to see them. My friends are very important in my life they are what gets me through most days. Without them I would be so lost. So to give up time with them just because of a boy would just be stupid and I would regret it everyday after I did it. Especially if the friends that I had the chance to hang out were gone the next day or the next year.

The way I want to spend everyday is as if it were my last. I want to be happy. I want to not worry about the little things that I know will eventually work their way out. I don't want to spend it mad at the people that I love. I want to smile as much as I can. I want to spend everyday as if it were my last and as though it could be my friends last day as well. So if you get a chance to hang out with an old friend then hang out with them because you never know what is going to happen to you or them.

Christmas Spirt

As I sit here listening to Faith Hill's where are you Christmas it makes me stop and think about what Christmas is really about it. This year it just doesn't feel like it has been Christmas time since I have gotten home from school. I don't know why but for some reason I just can't seem to get into the Christmas spirit. It's weird to me because Christmas is my favorite holiday. It is a time where I get to spend time with my family. It is a time to reflect back on the year that you have had and at the end of it all you can basically start anew. This year it has been hard for me to really reflect on my year and see where it has been and where it is going because at this point in my life I am not really sure where my life is going. It has also been a hard time because as I think about the year that I have had it just makes all these different memories come up of different people who have come in to my life and then they end up leaving. It makes me wonder what happened.What made them leave. The biggest thing on my mind lately is definitely Christmas but not about the presents or Santa Clause but what Christmas has become.

Christmas started because of Christ birth. It started as a celebration for the world. Christ came into this world to give all of us another chance. I look around and all I see is people going out and shopping and trying their hardest to get the latest and greatest things for the children or for their family members. Since when did Christmas become about just presents. Since when did Christmas started to stress people out and to make them rude to the people around them. That to me does not sound like Christmas at all. I don't even know what that sounds like. It almost like we were given this amazing gift but we want to be these spoiled little brats and we want something that is better. What is better than getting another chance because of Christ's birth? I am not saying that I always think about this because honestly I don't. It hardly crosses my mind at Christmas time. It usually all about the presents and what new things that I can get. It really is never about me being given the greatest gift of all already. It always what can I get that was better than last year or what can I get that is better than the things that I already have? That's not how my mind or anyone's mind should work.

A friend of mine reminded me of something that is very important. Some people in this world don't get to get presents on Christmas because their families can't afford it. I sometimes forget that. That there are people out there that are way worse off than I am or than I ever will be. At Christmas time I think that we become so consumed by the holiday itself that we forget the true meaning of Christmas we forget what it really is all about. The reason why the holiday even exist in the first place. Instead we are so concerned with the present and the decorations that we totally look over the fact that none of that matters in the end. The presents will get old the decorations will be taken down and then what are you left with? But if we remember the true meaning of Christmas then when the presents get old and the decorations are taken down we have something that is pretty amazing still left. Something that gives us a second chance at this whole life thing.

We need to stop caring about the presents and the decorations and focus on what is really important at Christmas time. It is a time that we get to see our families that we haven't seen in a while. It is a time to just relax and have a good time. It is a time to remember and celebrate the birth of Jesus. I think sometimes everyone needs to be reminded of this. While it has been hard for me to get into the Christmas spirit this year I know when tomorrow comes that spirit with come right along with it.

closing a semester

As I close this semester.....I could not be happier to say goodbye to this semester. It has definitely been one of the hardest semesters that I have ever been through. A lot has happened during this semester that I would really just rather forget. This semester was just not a good one...now I am not saying that there were not some good times because there were.


There were great times with friends. There were also good times had by meeting new people and getting to know them. The times that I shared with my friends were great. I decided to rent a house next year with my friends. Which I am so excited about.


However, most of the time I was very stressed this semester. I had to work my butt off to get the grades that I did. I went into this semester thinking that after a friend's death I could get through it and be fine. As I look back on this semester I should have realized that this semester was not going to be great. I am so ready to say goodbye to this semester. It has been so hard and I know in the end it will all be worth it but as I look at it right now it was very hard and I am just so ready to go home.

Getting older...

Sometimes in your life you have to accept that you are growing up and getting older. Does this mean that you have to give up being a little kid? Does this mean that everything has to change? Lately I have realized how much I have grown up in the past few months. I have also realized that I am getting older. Which I do not really like but I know that it is part of life. There are some people who do not do so well at growing up and getting older. There are somethings that you have to accept in your life that are very hard to accept. Lately that has definitely been me.

I have had to accept things the way that they are. I have had to accept the situations that I have been put in and learn how to deal with them. It has definitely not been easy. It has been a very hard thing to accept. However, I do realize that it is part of life and that not everything is going to go my way.

I have also realized lately who my friends truly are. There are just some people in your life that are there for you more than others. I have been blessed lately to really realize who of my friends are the ones that are going to be there for me for the rest of my life. The ones that truly care about me and want to spend time with me. There are others in my life that just want to be my friend when they feel like and to me I have realize that they are not really worth as much of my time. I have accepted that this is just part of growing up and getting older and well it is not fun I know that things will turn out okay in the end.